Anxiety thought dump

I am currently having second thoughts while attempting to kill brain cells while watching "What Not to Wear" on TLC. I know that my second thoughts are unfounded, but they exist. I am anxious, for example, about my age. I graduated college in 2006 and proceeded to take two years off. While I really needed the time off ( see www.caseaidediaries.net for more), I am becoming more and more alarmed that I will finish med school at the ripe old age of 28, only to turn 29 shortly thereafter. That's if I don't do an OMM fellowship, which I am seriously considering because of the teaching experience. Then, it's residency for 3 to 5 years (most likely 3). And what if I want to do a fellowship? Clearly, that's insane when paired with the stuff I want to do. Where do I have a life? I'm married, I want children. There are so many things that I want to do that have nothing to do with medicine.

It stings to think that I could just ditch this whole crazy adventure and live in a pretty place with sweet people and get my little family life started. My sister in law? She's just gotten married and is already talking about kids. For me, kids are far, far away. My biological clock is ticking. I know people have children during med school/residency/loan repayment programs, but how realistic is that?

At the same time, I know that I have a husband who loves and supports me, as well as in-laws who are amazing. I know that my husband would be a stay at home dad in a heartbeat, and that my in-laws and parents would be thrilled to have a grand baby to play with. I also know that if I don't at least try to make this work after all the effort I've gone to, I'll be seriously angry at myself for the rest of my life.